I’ve always loved butterflies. They symbolize resurrection, endurance, change, hope, and life. They're also the symbol of CP awareness.
I’ve gone through a lot, I've overcome a lot, and as a result, I have a love/hate relationship with my limitations due to my CP. I love my limitations because they have made me strong, courageous, stubborn, compassionate, and determined to make a difference. I hate my limitations because they can cause self-doubt, and I have always had to work extra hard to prove myself - I get very tired of that. Yes, I have limitations, but they DON'T define me. I am so much more than my limitations or my circumstances.
I also struggle with being an inspiration, ironic since I’ve written a book described as heartwarming and inspirational. I struggle with it because I don’t see myself as different or disabled. I am uniquely able and want to be accepted and seen as an equal, yet, when I read Joni Eareckson Tada’s devotional “Audiovisual Aids,” I gained a new perspective. Joni talks about how God uses those who struggle but continue to persevere as a way to strengthen others (Philippians 1:25). I smiled – thankful for this perspective. I never thought of it that way!
It’s hard to find the strength to keep going. Yet somehow I do, and I know that the testing of faith produces perseverance and endurance (James 1:2-4; see also Romans 5:3-4, Romans 12:12, Romans 8:28, and Psalm 119:50). Now, can you see why I love butterflies?